Episode Transcript
[00:00:02] Ready to lose 40 plus pounds without giving up happy hours, weekend brunches or date nights. Then it's time to uncover the hidden link between binge eating and toxic relationships. And finally break free from both. Welcome to the Hungry for Love podcast with Jillian Scott. Y' all ready? Let's go.
[00:00:24] Hey. Hey. Welcome back. I'm going to talk about depression and the depression that I was experiencing earlier this year that was very high functioning and it really only lasted about two months, two and a half, I would say.
[00:00:37] While it was fairly short lived in the grand scheme of things, it felt never ending. Like it felt really intense. Again, this is one of those heavier topics that I want to talk about because so often we shy away from talking about the big stuff, the important stuff. And as I look back, I really, I thought the depression was really like March and April. I finally admitted it the end of April, out loud. Not just to myself, but to my coach that I was talking with at the time. But there were some lingering thoughts, like there were some little thoughts all throughout the month of April where I was like, ugh, I think I might be depressed.
[00:01:14] And I didn't want to admit it and I didn't want to talk to friends about it because I didn't want to bring them down. I didn't want them to be worried about me. And there was even a sense of they couldn't really help me, so why bring it up? Why potentially stress them out if there's nothing that they could even do? I felt like I just needed to try harder, work harder. And so as I think back, I'm like, oh, actually I think it really started more like mid February and then March, April. It was really heavy, but I just kept fighting it. So we're going to talk about it because one, I want you to know that if you are feeling depressed, number one, you're not alone. And if you need to talk, I'm here. Because sometimes we need to say things out loud and it can feel really scary. And I think that was part of the problem, was like I didn't want to talk to anybody. I didn't want to say anything out loud because if I said it out loud to somebody else, then it would prove that it's true. I would have to admit it to myself and I didn't want to have to do that. I really wrestled, I really fought it. And I would say I was still very high functioning. I still got out of bed, I still exercised, I still taught my classes. I still was a great mom in showing up for Caleb and so there was also a little bit of fear around. But I'm doing all the things that I should be doing in order to naturally remedy it. So if it really is depression crap, now what I want to look on the bright side. I want to see things as, this is God's will and it's his plan and I'm going to trust in him. And if, yes, that's there and available for us, but we also have to be willing and at peace and accepting that of what is and not fighting it, not resisting it. Because my fighting and resisting the depression really, it looked like an inability to accept what was happening. And I think in part because I was like, not only was it, how do I remedy this? If what I'm already doing is what people recommend of, oh, eat healthy foods, get sunlight, go outside, exercise. I'm already doing the things people say. So is there anything left?
[00:03:16] And oh, where was I going with this? I lost my train of thought. This is what happens sometimes when I don't have notes. That's okay, it'll come back to me later. But, oh, I think it was more this idea of, who wants to hire a depressed life coach? I can't be depressed, I don't have time to be depressed. He's like, I've got a busy life, I've got a son, I've got these multiple things that I'm doing. I don't have time to be depressed, number one. And number two, it was this. I can't be because I need to keep growing my business, I need to make money. My spousal support is ending this year. I don't have time to mess around. I gotta make this work. And so there was a lot of pushing and forcing and resistance to what I was feeling. And it was only making it stronger. It only made it grow.
[00:04:00] What I can see now is when people are not depressed, they're not asking themselves or thinking, maybe I'm depressed. If you are thinking that, if you're like, it's kind of like, maybe I'm stressed, maybe I'm an emotional eater, maybe I'm feeling depressed, chances are that's probably a yes. I don't think our brain goes there if we're really not feeling that. Like now being on the opposite side, feeling amazing, having built up this new self confidence and momentum, those thoughts never cross my mind. That is not anywhere in my brain whatsoever. I think though, there were some little signs, some little things that kind of pointed me along the road, like feeling really hopeless. I was never going to hurt Myself. But there was this thought of, but if I died, would it really be that big of a deal? Yeah, sure. People might be sad for a couple days. Like, they would get over it. And it really. It wasn't even so much other people. It was more of, like, my son would be fine. His dad could take care of him.
[00:04:58] And there was a moment where that had come up in my brain one time, and then a few days later, it came up, and I was like, oh, no, no, no. Like, I. I thought about if my mom would have died and I was raised by my dad and my sisters and I were raised by him and not her. How extremely difficult that would have been. Would we have survived? Yeah, sure. But that would have been so hard and so painful. And so there were some little thoughts that really helped me create this sense of, I have something to fight for. I have someone to fight for. There is a purpose. And part of my depression was also some pressure and some urgency of, I've got to make this work.
[00:05:39] And there was this feeling of, why am I here, God? Like, you've put this desire on my heart. I have these skills. I'm a really great coach, but it feels like business is really slow. Things have not gone the way I wanted them to. And you gave me these skills. You put this dream on my mind, on my heart, and now you're not letting me have it. What the hell? What am I even here? What am I even doing if you're not even going to use me in a way that's powerful and going to be meaningful? Why. Why am I here? Why am I using up precious resources if you're not gonna use me? And there's no purpose? I felt very purposeless for a while, and so digging back into and finding that purpose was really important. That was a big first step of noticing when purposeless crept in and it even came out. Pastor was sharing part of his story and how he had wrestled with depression. And again, it was feeling purposeless, feeling forgotten about. And I just. It really resonated with me. And so I reached out to him, and it was right before Easter, and he was very busy with things going on in the church, and so he asked if we could push it back a week until after Easter Sunday. And I was like, yep, absolutely. Let's touch base the week after, and maybe we can set up a meeting for the following week. And within that time, though, I was able to talk with my coach, and I was also able to recognize and see, oh, I think I might actually need to talk with A therapist.
[00:06:57] And maybe I do need medication. Maybe I need something to help me get to a place where I can fight for a solid two months. It felt so hard to fight for positive thoughts. It felt so hard to fight to believe in myself. There were some little things along the way. So it was like the sermon at church and then talking with another coach. And just as I was talking with her and her kind of even pointing out and noticing your self belief just seems so low. You sound so incapable. And so just even that conversation with her where I'm like, yeah, something's not right, something's off. It was noticing my own thoughts and then this conversation with my coach at the time and just having this really honest moment, moment with her where I was like, yeah, I think I might be depressed and I'm really afraid because I don't have time, I gotta figure this out. And there was also this kind of frustration and anger at God of I thought you said you were gonna help me. You said you were gonna provide for me. This was where I was gonna grow my faith and trust in you and in myself. Where are you? There was some anger, but just acknowledging what was going on was essential and really helpful just to be able to say and acknowledge, okay, this has been depression. And this is why things have continued to not work. This is why things have felt really hard. This is why I'm taking a lot of action, but I'm not creating the results that I want because the energy just isn't there. It makes so much sense to me now. And so it was really scary to acknowledge that. But I also knew I've got to try something, something's got to give, something's gotta change.
[00:08:33] And this was like the very end of April that I'm recognizing this. And, oh, there was also some resistance to that because I didn't wanna be fighting, I didn't wanna be depressed after divorce. I wanted to be that story of life after divorce is amazing. And look what you can do when you let go and you start to set boundaries, let go of toxic people, move forward. I wanted to be that poster board and maybe like that poster child of what was possible and how good life could be. And I felt like I wasn't.
[00:09:03] And I felt a little let down. And it was. I don't want them to be right.
[00:09:08] The people who talk about how hard life is, how much of a struggle it is, like, I don't want them to be right. And so rather than allowing things to feel a little hard or there to be a little struggle I kept fighting and resisting it and made a big struggle. I made a big hard for myself. And one of the things that I also noted, because nothing significantly happened, there was no trigger. It wasn't like somebody died right then. There was no big thing that happened. But when I stopped and I pulled back, I was like, oh, my gosh. In 2022, I realized I had a lot of trauma from my childhood. I started to wake up to who my dad was and, like, his traits and what was happening with him. I was waking up to things and challenges in my marriage.
[00:09:49] I was waking up to my own toxic patterns and the dysfunction I had within myself.
[00:09:54] Then I was going through a divorce in 2023 and moving out, then dating a guy who was very emotionally avoidant, like, love bombed me, then ran away a couple months later. Then I dated. This I'm pretty sure was a pathological liar. He died. There was all of this compounding trauma and awareness. And so while there was a lot of healing that was going on, I'm also not that surprised it happened and it came out when it did because not only were there some triggers around things coming to an end based on our divorce agreement, but there was a lot of pressure and there was some fear and some scarcity. And I realized that I kept telling myself, I can't keep doing this. I can't repeat this. It's out of my control. It was like I kept arguing for my limitations. I kept fighting for how I couldn't do something. It sounds so backwards, but my brain, it was like, things would be going well, and then my brain would just offer me, like, but you can't continue it. You can't do it again. I would want to. I would almost try to keep going, but then it was like something would stop me. And then it was like, see? Told you you couldn't keep going. This was too good to be true. This was a fluke. Don't get too comfortable here. And really, it was like there was a lot of that kind of remnants of narcissistic abuse and being stuck in the abuse cycle when things would be good for a little bit. But then there was always something bad. There was always something negative coming. And so my brain was very much wired and prepared for it to where it was really looking for it and basically creating it itself in an attempt to keep me safe. And so it was a really hard and very frustrating period. And I also felt like, why is this happening now when there isn't this big trigger? But really, when I look at how I've grown up. What I've experienced over my entire life. My entire life has been a lot of dysfunctional patterns, and there's been a lot of abuse from a lot of different people.
[00:11:45] And to now be stepping out of that, it's like, yeah, no, it took some time for it to really set in, but it's. Oh, yeah, this is probably pretty normal, given what I've dealt with and what I've experienced. But it took a minute for me to actually accept that's what was happening and that's what was going on.
[00:12:02] It was a hard conversation to have with my coach, but I'm so glad I had it because it really helped me to admit where I was and also to stop feeling so bad. Like, it also made sense. It put things into perspective. It was almost like when I realized what was happening in my marriage or realizing things about my dad and how I grew up, and I was like, oh, now things actually make sense. Oh, my gosh. There was a little bit of denial still. But also, things have just been explained so clearly. And I get it. I see it better now. That, on one hand, was really helpful. And so she was very sweet, and she's never trying to tell me what to do, but she's like, here's what I strongly suggest. And she suggested that if I'm feeling some resistance, to step away. And I just told her. I was like, look, I'm gonna. If I step away, I'm gonna come back to it, and I'm just gonna be upset that I stepped away and I wasted time. And so it was like, with some little things that I was telling her, she was like, okay, so that sounds a little bit more extreme than I was thinking. So she was like, I would suggest taking a month off from sales and marketing. She was like, I would take off the entire month of May.
[00:13:10] And that was terrifying.
[00:13:11] And I was like, but I can't. Part of why I'm in this is this fear and anxiety and worry about my business and can I support my son? And what am I gonna do? And my life and my purpose and meaning and all these things, right? So I was like, I can't. I can't take off a month. But she also pointed out, she was like, look, you can keep doing what you're doing, but look at the last two months. You've been doing this, you've been fighting, you've been pushing, and it hasn't created the results that you wanted.
[00:13:39] So what if you took a step back?
[00:13:41] What if you dropped the rope and you stepped back.
[00:13:44] Let's say you still didn't create anything new, but maybe you work on healing your own mental health and your own challenges internally. And now you're actually getting somewhere. Because she's like, you're already not creating anything positive, so do you have nothing to lose?
[00:14:01] Is like, what she was saying?
[00:14:03] And I was like, yeah, you're right.
[00:14:05] And the day after that, I actually had a motorcycle riding date with a new guy that I had recently met. But it was so therapeutic. It was cool out. It had rained, it wasn't too hot, it wasn't cold, but it was like fresh air. And to be on a bike, it just felt so good.
[00:14:24] And it was exactly what I needed. And so I was like, okay, I guess I'm taking that day off. So that week I didn't have my son. I was like, all right, I'm just going to put all marketing to the side because a lot of it felt like a should. It just felt really hard. It felt really heavy. It was what I should be doing, and I should be evaluating and I should be making a podcast and I should be saying the right things. It was a lot of shoulds that really helped me to see. It was not fun, it was not enjoyable. If you go back and look, I think may. I did release a podcast, but there was only one for the entire month. And that was also intentional. I needed to step back, I needed to take a break. And so I decided I wasn't going to post on social media, I wasn't going to send an email, I wasn't going to do anything. And I really just needed to take a beat, and I was willing to let it be the entire month. Part of me was a little resistant to that at first, but I was like, but let's just give it the month. Let's just see. And I know this about emotions is that when I don't put a timeline on it, when I allow it to take as long as it needs, I always speed up the process. It always moves faster. I know that Friday night I was by myself watching a show, and I just felt so sad. Oh, there were some triggers of my boyfriend who had died, and there was a show where the main character reminded me of a younger version of him.
[00:15:43] And so I think there were some other trauma triggers. But that weekend, I was still sad and I still went out. I still did some things, but I brought my sadness with me, and I didn't try to fake it. There were some times where I had to just let myself be sad. But I remember that weekend, noticing this is the depression right now. And it's okay that I'm feeling really sad, really gloomy.
[00:16:04] I think one of the other reasons why I was resisting it was like, we had a lot of rain this spring. It was really gloomy, really dreary. And I think I had a lot of other things that I could blame it on. It was, Mercury is in retrograde, and the stars and the planets and the full moon, this. And then when we've had a lot of rain and it's been really gloomy, and it's like there were these things that I could blame it on for a while.
[00:16:24] And so what started off as a week or two turned into a month or two, and it was like this heaviness where it just got heavier. It didn't go away. And so I could see why it took some time, too, because there was always something to blame it on. Like, it's normal that it feels hard. It's normal that it feels bad right now. But I was looking to anything for hope. Like, I remember there was this woman on YouTube that I found, and I started watching her stuff, and it was like, anything positive, anything to plant a seed of positivity, that things were turning around, that things were going to get better. I was looking to hold on to anything for hope. It was like, could somebody please give me hope? Could somebody please help me turn this around? And what really turned it around was letting go and slowing down.
[00:17:08] And it was the opposite of what I felt like I needed to do.
[00:17:13] But the slowing down is what truly allowed me to heal and allowed me to ultimately be able to speed up. Had I not slowed down, I would probably still be fighting it now to this day in August, I guarantee. I let go of marketing and sales, and I just focused on showing up for client calls and any podcast that we're already scheduled to do the interviews for. And it's just like, whatever's on my calendar, I'm just gonna keep showing up for that. And after that, I'm gonna do anything that sounds fun, anything that sounds relaxing, that sounds enjoyable.
[00:17:46] And so for the first week, I would say things started to feel a little bit better. I went from what I would consider to be pretty heavy depression to feeling like I was 60% of the way. If I'm normally at 9,500, I was like 60% after that first week. There was a marked difference after just a week. And then at the end of two weeks, I was at 80%, and I was like, wow, I feel so much better. And in that second week, I also had scheduled to talk with a therapist, and I had reached out about potentially getting on medication. I ended up not taking it, but I was open to I might need it or this might be helpful for me for a time. And so I ended up never starting it, but it was something where I was like, I'm not opposed to anything right now. I'm just going to be open. And part of it was really just starting to explore and acknowledge, Yep, it has been a really hard couple of years.
[00:18:41] And so at the end of that second week, I felt so much had been lifted. And by the end of the month, I'm feeling 90%, not a hundred yet, not really back to normal, not fully back to normal, but I'm feeling so much better.
[00:18:57] And so that's when I started bringing back in the podcast, getting back into the groove of things. And really within that one month, within the one month of May, things shifted dramatically. And so I pulled up my chart. I did an A self evaluation. And so on May 5, I did my first one, and I was ranked as moderate depression and mild anxiety.
[00:19:21] And on May 26, so just three weeks later, it went from moderate depression to mild, and it went from mild anxiety to minimal to none. Huge improvements. And how I felt when it came to depression and anxiety. And I think the other thing that really helped solidify it for me, that was also hard to admit, but it was like taking one of these evaluations and seeing how I was scored in the moderate to high level for depression. And it was like, here's the zone in which we recommend medication. And I was between the middle to, like, the highest part. I was like, right in the middle of that. And when I saw that, I started crying.
[00:20:00] I just felt I let myself go. How did I get here? This is not what I wanted. There was still a bit of resistance, but also there was some peace. There was a little bit of acceptance. And now I know what I'm dealing with. Now I can solve it properly. So I think it was also hard to admit, but because I could accept it and say, yes, this is how I've been feeling. This is what's happening. I also know now I've got the right problem. Now I can solve it properly. Now I can make sure that I find the right solution. It was bittersweet because it confirmed how I was feeling and just how much I was really struggling and how I was suffering in silence for months because I didn't want to bring anyone down.
[00:20:41] I didn't want anybody to stress about Me, I didn't want anybody to worry. And I was like, I don't know that anybody can do anything.
[00:20:49] This is when I really started to piece it all together, too, of how much I have just trained myself to suck it up, to try to look on the bright side, to push through it. But also, like, there wasn't a space to be open and vulnerable because I didn't want to bring others down. I didn't want to share if my girlfriends and I were going out and we only do it once a month or every other month. I didn't want to talk about how I'm feeling really down and really low. And this has been a really hard season. I want to stay positive, especially when they have such hard jobs, too. There was a lot, though, of recognizing, oh, but I did this as a kid. I did this around food and body image. I did this in my marriage. This also makes sense.
[00:21:25] This is part of my fighting and resisting. I typically don't feel depressed, and I also wasn't as familiar with, oh, this is what this feels like, or this is what it's like. And now on the outside, I'm like, wow, I am so much better equipped to be able to help clients now who are going through this. I also know some little subtle shifts that I can pick up on because it reminds me of, this is what I went through. So I'm careful not to project anything. And I say, this is what I experienced. I here's what I'm picking up from you. Does that resonate? Tell me what's coming up for you now.
[00:21:58] Most of the time, what comes up is they are feeling depressed. There's just this level of not wanting to admit it. But I allowed myself to slow down, like, really truly to slow down, to detach. And I naturally wanted to get back into things. It was like, even after the first week, I was kind of like, I think I could probably pick stuff back up. And I gave myself another week, that second week. And then even week three was still very minimal. I think that's when I released a podcast. And then the week after that, my mom came to visit. So I really didn't get back into things until June.
[00:22:30] By mid June, though, I was like, all right, let's go. I'm ready. I feel good. I feel like I've come out the other side. I've come out stronger, and now it's time. Let's go for it. And so that's when I started sharing more and emailing, posting, podcasting, like, just getting back into the swing. Of things. But now also with this kind of shifted energy.
[00:22:49] So it's now mid June, I've joined a mastermind. And part of me was a little hesitant about that because when I first heard about it, it had shifted from a six months to a year long event. And I was like, oh, that sounds really awesome. But I also had a lot of fear and a lot of doubt and some disbelief. And I decided this is exactly what I need. This group, this program, this is gonna help me with all of the next things that I need to address.
[00:23:13] And July was amazing. I had a record month in business.
[00:23:18] I spent time with family, I spent time with friends. I did some little weekend trips. I was able to really enjoy my time with my son, to feel comfortable taking days off, taking weekends off and enjoying it. And then to have this beach trip. It was a really great month. And I realized it was literally within six weeks after fully admitting that I was feeling really depressed and really struggling. I felt so much better. I was like a completely different person even in just six weeks.
[00:23:48] And so I want to offer, if you are struggling right now, it doesn't take a lot of time to change.
[00:23:54] We always think we need more time or we need to like double our efforts. And that's not always what we need. And I think sometimes when we're feeling depressed, what we actually need to do is to slow down and to let go of certain things, all of the things that we should be doing. Sometimes we need to step back, back from that. And that can feel really scary because we can feel like we don't have time. We've got kids depending on us, we've got jobs, we've got colleagues, we've got people, We've got all of these things. And it's finding ways for you to slow down and lower the bar on your expectations of yourself and reset that minimum baseline. And that's what I had to do. And by giving myself that permission, I did allow myself to speed up.
[00:24:36] So when I actually ran the numbers in the month of July, I did in sales in one month. What I did in January through June combined, I did over six months of sales in one month. There was a couple weeks of like build up to that, but that really was, I'm gonna slow down, I'm gonna allow and accept what is. I'm not gonna fight it when I'm feeling sad, when I just wanna read a book, when I wanna watch TV or a movie, if I wanna cry, like I'm just gonna allow it all.
[00:25:04] And there's no urgency there's no rush, but I'm just gonna explore. And I gave myself the entire month and I was feeling so much better after that first month. Really within the first two weeks, I felt marked difference. So much different after just two weeks. But even with my quiz results, with my self evaluation, there was such a huge change in three weeks and in six weeks it was minimal to none for both depression and anxiety.
[00:25:33] It doesn't take a long time and you can pick back up, you can get back into things and things can move even faster than you expect on the other side. But so often we don't talk about this, right? We hide it. We don't want to admit it to ourselves and so we don't admit it to other people. We don't want to bring other people down.
[00:25:51] We want to look on the bright side. We want to stay positive. Maybe there's been a pattern for you around being negative or worst case, thinking things like that. And maybe you're trying to break that pattern, but now there's some resistance to what is, and this is your permission that it's okay, you're not alone, nothing has gone wrong. And this is all figureoutable, this is all solvable and it's gonna feel scary. This is where we learn to build our self trust. We learn to have our own back. And one of the things that I really leaned into and one of the things that crossed my mind, there was a moment when I remembered the conversation I had with the pastor and I was out walking.
[00:26:32] We were supposed to have a counseling session. My ex didn't show up. It wasn't a priority to him. So I'm talking with this pastor from my former church and he asked me point blank, why are you still with him?
[00:26:44] What is God trying to teach you? What is God wanting to teach you? Whether you stay or you leave, what is God suggesting for you in your life? And there was this moment where I knew, I was like, God is telling me it's okay to leave, but I need to leave. And he's going to help build my trust and faith in him and he's going to help me rebuild my trust and faith in myself. There was this like deep gut knowing of, I can't stay. This is not good for either of us. And I also had a conversation with God. And when I was making this decision and I was debating it, I didn't feel called to stay in our old place, in our old state. I knew that if I move there's probably a 50, 50 chance of divorce.
[00:27:23] But I also Trusted that if I did move and we did get divorced, God wanted me here. He wanted me in this town, in this state. He wanted me here. There was a reason for it, even if I couldn't see it right then. It was scary. But there was this little reminder from God. He hasn't left me. He's right here.
[00:27:42] There were times when I felt like he had left, but he hadn't gone anywhere.
[00:27:47] Part of it was just what I needed to go through.
[00:27:50] It was part of my journey. It was part of what had to happen.
[00:27:53] Part of me not fighting and resisting some negative things and noticing how I just wanted everything to be good and easy and amazing because I wanted to prove all the naysayers wrong. It's been a journey, but I wanted to share this, to know that, one, we as humans are not immune to the human experience.
[00:28:13] That even as life coaches or therapists or professionals, in some sense we still are going to have challenges, we still are going to face emotions.
[00:28:24] And it's how we handle it. It's what we do through it. I know this has made me a better coach. I know this has helped me to better be able to see it and tune into it within clients.
[00:28:34] And I share this and I open up because I am a big believer that I'm gonna go first. And all of those shamey things that we don't wanna talk about, I'm gonna talk about it. And I don't ever want you to feel like you're alone, that you are being judged, because you're not. This is life. Sometimes life is lifing. This is just more of what we have to go through. It's part of our journey, it's part of our story. And my goal is to help make that journey easier, to help make it better, to help you if you are in a season of depression, to help you stop fighting and to truly lean into a solution that works for you and what you specifically need.
[00:29:13] This may not be relevant for you right now. You might be listening and it's not relevant. But maybe it's relevant for a friend or a family member. Maybe it's relevant for somebody you know. And so I'd encourage you to share it with them. If this is something that somebody is going through a tough time, and this might be something that maybe in the future this comes up, and it might be something you come back to months later, years later.
[00:29:36] But I wanted to create this resource to share. This is okay. Even as a life coach, with all the tools and all the mindset and all the things all the trainings, all the certifications. I still am a human at the end of the day, with a human brain and human experience, and I am still breaking free from my own trauma bonds and my own challenges and my own struggles. And I am getting better and better at it. I also know the power when we share our story, how much more connected we feel to people as we go. Throughout the rest of this year, I'll be sharing a little more about my marriage, my divorce, what's happened since then, the epiphanies and everything that I've realized, just the. Some of the different dating experiences. I know there's been a lot of that woven in already, but I realized I haven't really shared some marriage stories, my divorce stories. And part of it is like, Gosh, it was 10 years. Like, how do you sum up 10 years?
[00:30:33] Kind of like, where do I begin? And I'm still playing with how I want to talk about that, how to bring that up. But I also also know that it's an important part of my story, and it does help us to know that we are not alone. When we hear others that are going through things and that they've overcome it, it's so encouraging and it's so empowering. I want you to know that you are loved, you are supported. If you are going through a tough time, there is hope and things will get better.
[00:31:01] Part of the process is just accepting what is.
[00:31:05] It's accepting things and any emotions that come up with it.
[00:31:10] Any feeling like, I'm not good enough because I'm feeling depressed, or I'm not good enough because I'm feeling anxious, knowing that there's help, there's support, it does get better. And there are ways to move through this and to navigate it. This is not something that you're gonna necessarily have to deal with for the rest of your life.
[00:31:28] Part of it does come from healing from narcissistic abuse, healing from the diet trauma, healing these different parts of our lives, these different parts of ourselves, this becomes part of the process.
[00:31:41] I have never felt more on fire. And just like I had shared some of the best compliments that I've received recently. A couple episodes ago, friends noticing something's a little different. You seem happier. You seem more content, more peaceful, more confident. And there is. There's been, like, these little subtle shifts.
[00:31:59] I feel it, and I'd say that's the most important thing, is I feel it. I feel so much better.
[00:32:06] If you want some help and you want to feel better, too, then I would love to talk.
[00:32:10] I will put a link for my schedule for my calendar. I'll put that in the description here. But the next best step is to schedule a free call. If you want some help with weight loss and maybe you are going through what feels like a really tough time and you need some extra support and you want some extra help, this is possible for you too. I am not a magical unicorn, but to have drastically different results in under two months is pretty mind blowing. I was not expecting to be feeling this good in this short of amount of time and this is possible for you too. If you'd like some help, I would love to chat.
[00:32:49] And again, please share this. If you know of somebody who is wrestling with depression or anxiety, grief, any kind of heavy, bigger emotion, I would love for you to share this and give them some hope as well and help them to know that they are not alone.
[00:33:04] All right, here's to creating the life and body you crave.
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